a week full of big feelings

this has been one of those weeks that quite honestly, i’m glad is over. it was hard. difficult personally because of a pretty monumental event that forever changed my family. difficult because of big emotions. difficult because of parenting hurdles with big behavior struggles…

BUT

oh so good because of God’s big grace. good because of overwhelmingly great big love i have for my kids. good because of a sweet community that i have found myself immersed in. good because of so many blessings.

regardless of difficult or good, my heart is worn out from so many big feelings. i helped miss independent put her pajamas on the other day, which she usually does all. by. herself. for some reason she asked for my help. i sat on her floor as she studied where the tag was and carefully maneuvered her shirt on so the tag would be in the back. i stared at and adored her face of concentration. then i realized that some days i race through the day preoccupied by other necessary things, like little brother, that i don’t even stop to look into her beautiful eyes. she has surely been a trooper during some big changes lately and some shifts of attention and i am so proud of her. i’m proud of her for adjusting and i’m also proud of her for the moments that just seem too hard and she expresses her feelings. big feelings. sometimes they’re ugly. they’re uncomfortable to watch but when i stop and realize what’s going on, i am so proud of her and the huge heart that she has.

how do i help her through these big feelings? that is the question that has been keeping me up at night lately. that is the big prayer i’ve been praying.

grace might just be the answer.

and a little extra love.